the king is dead, long live the king

dreamt Papa died. Was upset but not very emotional. Saw Y.Rand who i haven't encountered in over four years and though i didn't want to be a pity-case (my brother just said hi and walked away, no need to vomit his emotions into the lap of anyone who comes along) , couldn't help myself and blurted out immediately "my father just died" after which i burst into tears on his shoulder. He knows what it's like to lose a parent. I also remember talking to some girl who felt sorry for me and telling her that now i was a millionaire because of the life insurance policy. economy of relationships. how bizarro.