was ist das- die Glucklichkeit?

Benjamin once wrote that happiness is the ability to look inside yourself without being terrified. And this got me thinking that we shouldn't be asking "are you happy?" but rather "what would happiness look like to you at this given moment?" Now - the ability to inhabit the present without the anxiety of trying to be elsewhere or elsewhen.

Lenz

The rushing of the wind was like a chorus of Titans; he felt as if he could thrust a gigantic fist into heaven and seize God by the scruff of the neck and drag Him bodily through the clouds, as if he could crunch the world to bits with his teeth and spit the pieces in their Creator's face; he cursed, he blasphemed.
-- Georg Buchner

dream

the family (sans papa) is on a ship, heading to some vacation/adventure. I somehow discover that the captain is actually a pirate and means to do them harm. So I go about confronting him in private, with a sword, thinking i had him. But he - it turns out - is an expert swordsman, and with a few deft moves makes it clear to me how powerless i am against him. Then he leaves me and returns to where the family is. I have to find some way of getting off the ship, because I know what is going to happen and i don't want to be there, powerless, when it does. How to get off without letting them know something is wrong? And can I get off, we're in the middle of the ocean? Where is the next port?